Thursday 23 May 2013

Thinking or Sinking



Pain
My heart keeps getting stabbed over and over
It's because im still here, breathing in this broken body
With an even more of a broken mind
This ship is sinking...
I'm not sure if I am even thinking...
The waters come flooding in
 I dont know where to begin...
Trying to find the heart of peace in this storm,
Those sharp words , that harsh talk
and yet I cannot think
All my pearls down the kitchen sink
All my dreams being ripped up in front of me
I cant handle this. How can I think with all this noise?
How am I supposed to sleep?
I am so desperately unhappy without you
Here I am without a clue
I really dont know what to do
This boat is sinking...
I might just need to stop
..thinking...

Friday 17 May 2013

Winter

WINTER

YOU HAVE TURNED MY SNOW INTO WINTER
YOU HAVE TURNED MY SNOW INTO ICE
YOUR NOT NICE
YOUR NOT NICE
YOU HAVE SPREAD MALICIOUS WORDS ABOUT MY LOVER
YOU SPREAD YOUR ONLY VERSION OF THE TRUTH
THERE IS NOTHING LEFT
BETWEEN ME AND YOU
SO NOW YOU KNOW
HOW I FEEL


SUMMER DAYS
WINTER LOVE
SUMMER WINE
DRUNKEN LOVE
SUMMER DAYS
FLOATING BY
WHERE IS THE SUNSHINE OF MY LIFE?
WHERE IS THE SUNSHINE OF MY LIFE?

We are One Family


Flowing rivers of love embrace me
we are one family
we are one family
Set strong by the great oak pillars
Set apart by sacred salt
Set apart by the Goddess herself
With brand new insights
My soul takes flight!
You just keep taking me
To Higher places
Places of the Dark
And Mystery
I wont trip over my broomstick
I wont break my bones
 But I will spill my blood
To be with You
To be one family
We are one family
Underneth the darkened moon
Underneth the Broken stone
We are one Family
We are one Family

The Faery Circle 'The Wonder of it all'

The Faery Circle 'The Wonder of it all'

There are special treats from every tree
The Faeries have kept back from you and me
But now  they are coming back for you and me
To share thier mysteries and their hidden glory
So they have bound my fear
And in Perfect Trust they have come to me
They are never in a rush
They magically bend and distort the light
They teach me life is worth living
And I cant give up my fight
They are the little people of the earth
They have been waiting for you and me
To open our hearts and turn the key
Their magical doors are a portal to behold
To places of wonder where their stories unfold
Their childlike wonder is truly beautiful
Their purity and thier care of the earth
Their care of our Home and the hearth
I wonder at their magick
I wonder how when they smile they light up the earth
I wonder at the heart of it all
I wonder how the magick begins and when does it end
I wonder how they manage to stop time
 And make the fabric of space time bend
I wonder at their unseen flashes of beauty
I wonder at the cascading light
The ornamental homes that they reside
The beautiful glory and their hidden mysteries
Deep within the faery circle
I just stare in awe in wonder of it all

12 hours left

12 hours left - 18.05.13

24 hours living in pain
12 hours left till I get my name

12 hours left living in this place
12 hours left till I see your face

I am just a troubled soul
Trying to make my life whole

12 hours left till I see your face
12 hours left till I finish this race

12 hours left to hide
12 hours left to keep the darkness inside

12 hours till i see your face
12 hours left till I reach your grace

12 hours left living in this place
12 hours left ....




12 hours is what we have done together
12 hours left
We thought we were forever

Now Good Bye is all I can say
There is no more time left to explain who, what, why

12 hours left
Good Bye

Running -Poem Feb 14th Valntines day 2013

Running -Poem Feb 14th Valntines day 2013


I do keep on running
Running to strangers
Fnding out they dont have the answers
Running with the Northern Wind...
Not knowing whether Ieven want him about
No one can hear me scream or shout
Running to the East....
Yes I know I am a beast
I will dial your number and you make it better for a moment or two
But not for long
I keep running and running...
I run to the south where I pressed myself upon a table
Under the stars. I dont know who you are
I dont know your name
But yes I am still the same.
I keep on running...
I ran to the West...
I actually thought he'd be the best
But I know I will end up like the rest
So lonely and depressed
So I better keep on running
Till I reach my goals
I want to feel right and run in the light
Rather than keep on running...
And stopping and falling...
Trying to avoid the holes
I will stop one day
All this running....
I will find out one day
I will know for sure
I will not loose my soul
Deep dark in those holes
I will follow my dreams
until I arrive
I will keep on running
Till I find my place
I know I am different from the human race
I will keep on running and running
Till I find my way
I will run this this race
and seek your face
And one day I will arrive
And instead of feeling so alone
I will run into your arms
where I know... I am Home.

Riding on with the Eternal Rose

Riding on with the Eternal Rose

I never want to leave this place
Oh eternal Rose
Oh only you truly know!
Only you have seen me
Riding through the Night
Riding through the Storm

Oh my Goddess
Oh my Eternal Rose
It is only because of you
That no one else knows
that I can ride through the night
And not be blinded by the Light
It is only because of You.
Through all the wind
And through all the rain
Through all the hard times
And through my pain
I hold your hand
I ride on...
It is only because of you.
I never want to leave this sacred place
I never want to leave your side
I would fall into the deepest forest
And I would never be found again
Instead i am with you
Soaring through the sky
Beside you
I am with You
I ride on
I feel your beautiful petals
unfold across the skies
and I wonder why
I never journyed this way
With you before
I am yours
I am your child.
I ride on through the Night
With You
I am not blinded by the Light
I ride on
Oh my Eternal Rose
I ride on.

IT HASNT STARTED YET

IT HASNT STARTED YET

I AM SHAPE SHIFTING!
I AM  SHAPE SHIFTING!
IM CHANGING MY FACES
I WANT TO GO PLACES
WITH YOU
WITTTTTH YOUUUU!

I AM WAITING !
I AM WAITING!
WHILE YOU ARE CELEBRATING
THE JOY OF MY RETURN
HA HA HA
THE JOY OF MY RETURN!!!

DARKSIDED
COLD SHOULDERED
DARK HEARTED
COLD LOVER
COLD LIPS
COLD LOVER
COLD KISS
DARK LOVER
I AM THE STANDING
IN FRONT OF THE LIGHT
iT HASNT STARTED YET!
IT HASNT STARTED YET!
i WILL TURN DARKNESS INTO NIGHT
IT HAS HASNT STARTED YET
IT HASNT STARTED YET

Another Life - 18.05.13

Another Life - 18.05.13

I can still hear the Church of Broken Bells
This is the way - the way to hell

So gather up your pearls dear child
For my love is passing you by
My love is passing you by

You chose another life
You chose another life
You have chosen the demons
The ones that haunt you and mock you
I see their every stare

But why dont you know?
That I still care!

Your ship may be sinking
I know what you are thinking
Your broken glory
Your hearts fallen story

See, the choice is up to you
You know what you have to do

Your boat is sinking too
Why dont we go down to the waters edge together?

We could be together forever!!

I wonder poem 29.1.13

I wonder poem 29.1.13

I wonder why they have to be so loud.
It's not like i am quiet and like to stand out from the croud
I wonder as the day passes me by
I wonder why
There is no time left to do anything right
Far too busy hiding from the light
You came in uninvited now leave as quiet as a mouse
I dont know if i live in a home or a house
I wonder why they dont just leave me alone
I wonder why you dont answer the phone.
I wonder why we do the things we do
Why we go to wok and pretend all day long
I wonder when exactly does the Royal court take place
I wonder if I will ever see your face.
I wonder who is looking over my fence
I wonder if i will get any reccompense
I wonder if we have gone beyond
I wonder if i can rewrite my wrongs
I wonder when you tell me our planet is shifting
I wonder when i see the babies crying
I wonder why i pretend i am flying
I wonder if i am under too much stress
I wonder why i chose to digress
When really I probably spend far too much time thinking
And one day
I wonder if i will be sinking.

Dont Belong here any more

Dont Belong Here Any More


You were so furious when we spoke
Your heart was bitter and twisted
You forgot about the love in your heart
You forgot to love

I dont belong here
Being treated like this anymore
You know the reason why I left you
and headed for the Door
You knew I could not take it anymore

I could not take it anymore
I will not take it anymore
I will not take it anymore

I dont belong here anymore!

Crystal Goddess

Crystal Goddess of Restoration

Great Goddess of Nature and fall
Great Goddess above it all
Great Goddess of the eternal fall
Your crystal coven covers me
You cover my broken wings
I sing a broken melody
With my heart full of pain and melancholy
I fall at your feet of majesty
I see the wonder of your feminin perfection
Throughout all creation
You restore my sight again
You restore me when I come undone
You are my breath when I have none
Oh eternal Goddess
Keeper of the crystal gates
I am your child
Restore me

Beautiful One --12.03.13

Beautiful One --12.03.13

You are my beautiful one
I will always hold onto you
I wont let you fall
Your beauty is unfolding day by day
Young heart
New start
Faith is within your reach
Just breath
and believe
You are my beautiful one
You are going places

Leave your ego in the fire
You dont need it anymore

Stunning child of light
Stop trying to fight

I will grant your greatest desire
Love always wins.

Whats Left?

Whats Left? -17.05.13

Fragments of broken light
It was love at first sight -
I want to tell you
I've never felt this way ever before
You were there. You came knocking at my door

I wonder why in my dreams
I still see you
I still fall through the floor
But all I know I cant take much more

Whats left of you and me
We have nothing left to believe in
Do we? This is my broken story
Of too many words and not enough glory

I wonder, I still wonder about it all
I wonder if you still love me at all
Wondering why we dont speak at all
Wondering why you never call

I wonder whats left of us all.

Too many Words

Too many Words - 17.05.13

Too many words in my head
An Unmade bed
Vomit instead

Of a trip of rainbow colours
Sold for millions
Millions of Pounds
Becasue that's all we are ever chasing after
But what ever happened to Us
What happened to our love?
Too many voices
Telling me all
But you know in the end
Down, we fall.
I know you will send your best to me
From this cracked heart of broken glory
This is the pain from my story
Too many voices inside my head
The Unmade bed
Vomit instead
This is my broken glory
This is my hearts secret story
I adore the pain of seeing you smile in my heart
There is just no way to know how to start

No more left now
No more left now

Butterflies

BUTTERFLIES 17TH APRIL 2013


Butterflies in jamjars
Too many shining dark stars
I wonder why I find it hard to sleep at night
Why am I so frightened of living in the light?
"We are one but we are not the same
We are the demons of the soul
We have come to make you whole"

So collect your butterflies
Try as you might
You will never fight the darkness of the night
Flitter flutter little butterfly mind
Flitter flutter little fucked up mind
When i look deep into your eyes
I see the dance of the boastful lies
You are floating, falling from disaster
Broken lies
Broken mind
You are one with the night
Join the Night
The time is now
the time is now
The time is now
Fight the light!
Join the Night!
Little butterfly mind
Little butterfly mind
Your time is now
The time is right.

THE DEMONS VERSE -17th april 2013

THE DEMONS VERSE -17th april 2013




I'm in a dichotomy
Dont which way i am supposed to be
Too many hours without rest
no rest for the wicked my dear
no rest for the wicked
Burn the wick at both ends!
The candle keeps on melting
The dangerous sands of time are threatening
I wonder how much we've really all got left
I wonder if the trees break down and cry
Sometimes i wonder why i feel so cold
Sometimes i wonder when i feel old
Age is frightening thing...
But what is more frightening is fear itself;

...."It's here where we come to feed
      It's here where we sow our seed---
We steal your energy which you so freely give away
Your pitiful humans!
You're pathetic in every way!
We steal your energy, your prana
We steal the way to your nirvana
We steal your thoughts so you dont know whats going on
Around you we stare at you, intimidating you from the shadows
Liars love us and we love them. Hippocrites are our favourite. We can do much with you
You poor poor humans we steal your thoughts we put ours in
We steal your life which you so freely give away
We steal your minds and you will find there are many of us and you gave yours away!
We are thiefs but we only take what you give us. We want your health, your money, your time, we want your life, we want your all
We will win. we are darkness inside
We are the winners inside. You may think you are winning but in the end we will win
We are living inside we love to breath through you
With nature unfolding our demonic story begins we take over and live through you.
How wonderfully dark we are -- we live inside you!
How wonderfully welcoming we are -- we live inside of you!
Embrace us and the power is yours !"